Today has been a day that I’ve struggled to not be frustrated with things that aren’t happening in my life that I wish were…
Five years ago, while going through the worst/hardest break-up of my young life, my grandmother gave me a piece of advice that I’ve held to through many times of struggle:
"If it’s meant to be, it will be."
One of the most difficult parts of this advice is figuring out how long you are supposed to hesitate while figuring out if it is meant to be.
The past three years have been a myriad of emotion.
There have been consistent struggles with my family, struggles with socioeconomic factors, and struggles with time and location.
I’ve been willing to accept the strain from family. I recognize that their short-sighted perspective is not the “right” way to live or look at the situation, and I don’t feel that is an acceptable reason to stop being with someone I enjoy.
The last three factors have made things the hardest.
I’m torn between wanting the excitement of each other from the beginning of the relationship and wondering if the strain is occurring because of these later factors.
The hardest part then, is figuring out how long does one idle before there will be a moment of knowing that this is where we need to be. I’m suffering from figuring out the difference between wants and needs in a relationship. It’s turning out, there’s a few more needs than I originally thought. I’m remaining optimistic.